Today I had a realisation. I am ONLY 28.

I had been panicking of late about my upcoming 29th birthday. Fully aware that with it comes my final year before the BIG 3.0.

It had felt like my youth was escaping me.  I had so much I wanted to do, and was worried I would be too old to start again.

I didn’t even know what I wanted to when ‘starting again’. I just knew I wasn’t ready to be put on the shelf. I hadn’t finished developing. I wasn’t yet the final product.

I still have no answer to the question of what I want to do in life.  My only answer is that I want to be happy.


The hardest question of all though to answer is; ‘what makes me happy?’

My family of course, and my friends. Orient winning. Southend losing. Daffodils. Finding money at the bottom of my handbag. New shoes. Teaching. Writing. Learning.

All these things bring a smile to my face just thinking about them. So I guess this is a good place to start.

My husband makes me blissfully happy and we are raising two amazing children. I have a wonderful group of friends, ones I know I will still be laughing with when I’m 80 years young.

I have returned to teaching one day a week, and have found blogging; giving me an outlet for my writing and creative side.

Life is good.

Now its time to look forwards. Spring (if you could call this weather Spring) is the time for new beginnings. This is why I prefer it to Christmas. Its full of hope and fresh plans. It fills me with the belief I can be whoever I desire, despite what the past 12 months may have thrown at me.

Just like the daffodils appearing from the cold, frosty ground. It doesn’t matter what has happened to you in the past you can still bloom and make the world around you smile.

I want to learn more, about anything and everything. I love new information. Discovering new things. I want to study. I want to achieve something that inspires me to strive for more than just life in my comfort zone.  I want to inspire my girls to love education in the way I do. I want to go back to university.

This is when my new plans begin. I have some ideas of what my life will look like in 5/10 years time. Now its up to me to make this happen. My life is mine to make it what I wish. And I wish it to be awesome.

Wish me luck.



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2 Thoughts on “Life Is What You Make It

  1. Angela on April 6, 2013 at 8:03 am said:

    Lovely post and good luck with your new plans x

    • AnEssexWife on April 6, 2013 at 8:07 am said:

      Thank you – I have decided to stop worrying if people will like what I write and write for the heart instead. It has been a revelation!

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