The ones where everything conspires against you
The one where your children have forgotten that if you are looking for a school jumper the wardrobe is a good place to start
The ones where nothing is where you left it the night before
The ones where the shower is cold and the towel is damp
The ones where you sneeze just after putting on your mascara and end up looking like you should be on a mating programme with Chi-Chi at London Zoo
The ones where every red light catches you
The ones where you drop your children to a friend as you need to be in London early – only to find you’ve left your phone at home an need to head back across town to get it
The ones where you berate yourself for not being able to live without a phone, but know you’d spend all day worrying that the school has rung with a problem and that you can’t survive in London without Google maps
The ones where the traffic getting back into town to get to the station is so bad you wonder how early everyone must normally leave to get to work on time
The one where you rush to the cash point and it’s out of order and you have to queue for the only working one around the corner making you late for the train
The ones where you have to tell the press secretary of a Westminster Minster that you’ll be later for a meeting – probably one of the most important meetings you’ve ever had
The ones where it’s 11am, you’re grumpy and tired and you realise that’s its most likely due to the fact you forgot to have breakfast
The ones where you the finally get a coffee and a moments peace and realise that it’s almost lunchtime and through the stress of the morning you haven’t thought about your children once
The ones where that realisation, and resulting guilt, makes you feel like you’ve been hit in the stomach
The ones where you then think that you have life pretty good and who are you to moan about smudged mascara and missed train
The ones where that guilt makes you feel like a house has fallen on your chest, and the panic sets in that karma will punish such selfish thoughts
The ones where you realise life is harder now
The ones where you realise this because you have a fire in your belly again
The ones where you realise you are making a place for yourself in the world again and have a future to look forward to
The ones where you realise there will be many more days like this ahead
The ones where you realise that’s OK
The ones where you remember life is good in the fast last
The ones where you remember tomorrow is Saturday
I have these days often Alice, in fact I had one today. Sometimes it’s the little niggly things that can sent me on a grumpy path all day. But like you say, deep down we have it pretty good and often you just need to remind yourself of that. x